Just Because I Am Good At It, Doesn't Mean It Is Good For Me

My tagline is "tech support for the soul,”™, and by naming my business Intuitive Therapies, I could think of myself as the "soul's IT department," which was a lovely way to play with words. (UPDATE: in 2020, the addition of Hypnosis to my skill set necessitated a name change from Intuitive Therapies to Intuitive Hypnosis. I was bummed to lose the IT department, but evolution calls us to new things, including name changes & rebranding.) This lifetime, my primary activity has been to provide relief and has been the case since my earliest memories. It showed up in my role as the eldest child/only daughter to a single mom, Big Sister to 6 younger brothers, a CNA, EMT, wife, homeschooling mom,  volunteer,  healer/Lightworker, and general-purpose Bridger of Gaps. I have a knack for accessing re-Sources and helping others connect to them on both the physical and etheric planes. 

When I ignore the feeling of “off,” things start to behave like an off balance washing machine, threatening to take out the whole basement.

Recently I spent several weeks redefining what that means to me via some really interesting waves of contrast through other people's lives, which overflowed into mine, of course! There are physical, emotional, spiritual, mental, and social aspects that apply to people "going through something" and often more than one will show up at a time. I noticed that each wave was bringing me opportunities to bridge stronger and more intense needs on the physical level. I was really appreciating the emergency and medical care training I had received previously. It felt good to know what to do and how to do it in a tough situation, in a manner that minimized embarrassment and maximized self-empowerment for those I was helping. It felt fabulous to realize I "still had it," and was good at "it." But after a few of those tumultuous events I noticed an odd feeling not so quietly zipping around in the background, indicating that something was off. When I ignore the feeling of “off,” things start to behave like an off balance washing machine, threatening to take out the whole basement.

I spent some time meditating on this, trying to find the "offness." I found that my goal of being "tech-support" had started to filter through a lower, fear/lack belief frequency something like "receiving Well-Being is precarious and easily threatened" which was translating to "urgent care" and "crisis management" for others, and of course, myself.

I heard this phrase in my Mom's voice (she passed a few years ago) as I woke up the next morning:

Just because you are good at it, doesn't mean it is good for you. 

It was time for me to clarify my desire and intention of what I wanted to create and how I wanted to receive it. I LOVE that I get to choose! I get to decide, consciously or obliviously, what I am receiving. Some people think about the need to establish boundaries or parameters, which I had done before, but that doesn't really address -my- point of attraction as much as it does the hopeful-but-erroneous control of others' behavior. My Inner Being was guiding me to a redefined and clarified Standard Operating Procedure, or a new point of attraction. Sweet!

Chronic, long term urgent care living is not satisfying or sustainable.

Epiphany in a nutshell: If my self-care & Spiritual Practice functions at the “crisis management/ urgent care level," I will set that as my Operating Procedure and point of attraction and invite others to meet me there to validate and manifest it. Chronic, long-term urgent care living is not satisfying or sustainable.

Updated Standard Operating Procedure: Every. Single. Day. Connect with Source/My Inner Being to receive Tech Support for my soul or Well-Being. Fill up my tank, revel in the Joy that IS the Journey, relish, delight, resonate, replenish, reSource, realign, and reset my Point of Attraction. Then the frequency that invites others to meet me there, to validate and manifest, will feel more satisfying and sustainable.  

It is funny because I knew that already, that updated version. I was oblivious to the "crisis management/urgent care" belief system that was bubbling away under the surface, putting limitations on my ability to receive that level of Support and Well-Being. It is so freaking fun and fabulous to uncover those things, clean them up, and set them free!

And that is definitely good for me.

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